why i do what i do

for anyone who knows me they know i live for softball. since i've been to old t play it, i've been coaching it since last fall. this past weekend was state fall ball. my girls made it in to b devision...1st ranked. not only did my girls get ranked 1st but we made it to the championship. the girls worked there butts off all day sunday to get that far. the final game came, to start it off one of our pitchers megan had a line drive right back at her and broke her finger. that's when the teams adittude when right down the poop shoot. i wasn't to happy...we had to throw our other pitcher who's arm was almost gone to begin with. in the long run we ended up taking 2nd. which was really great. the girls had a lot of fun...the coaches had a lot of fun. and yet on my ride back to school i found myself in tears. these tears weren't because i thought the girls didn't do good. i couldn't have been happier for them. it had finally hit me that i never did the whole coaching thing for me....i did it for someone else. i took what i knew and loved and helped others better their game. i've never felt this way before. I HELPED SOMEONE! you have no idea what kind of self pride one can feel after somthing like that.
life gives you options. you can take what life gives you and waist it or you can give it back to others.

going home for the weekend

i can't wait for friday! i'm going home...sleeping in my own bed...which i haven't done in over a month. yes that's right. i need some one on one time with my bed. amber is coming home this weekend and i get to see her. i havent' seen her in over 2 months. i can't wait to talk with her. i get to take some more of katie's sr. pictures and have some fun with her and my sister. i really miss katie. our friendship has grown so much over the past year and i spent so much time with her over the summer...mostly within the last month of summer. i think i saw her like every other day if not everyday at both fair and state fair. when me and katie get together we hot tub...i haven't been in my hot tub for a month. o wow. i really need it to be tomorrow so i can drive 3 hours to get back to the place that i love. and see the people i miss....well some of them.i can't wait. i can't wait. i can't wait!!!!!! fun for me.

one class today...two classes tomorrow and i'm in speedy faster than you can say....lkjaioeoilkdinvieona. i mean it too

kick in the butt of the day goes to---who ever made today today and not tomorrow

can you say....ahhhh

one side of me is mad...other side of my feels bad. i'm talking about how i felt tonight about my best friend. you see martha is one of those girls that you really shouldn't put your money on and yet i still do cause i love her like my sis. she was suppost to come and help me coach today and she blew me off cause she needed to study for a test which she could have studied for yesterday when she went shopping. yes i know well she went shopping o well. but she just went to the same mall last weekend with me. and it's not that she is just blowing me off she's blowing all the girls on the team off.
and then i get back here to find tha she left me message on facebook...saying how she's not so happy with her roommate and how she misses me and all our time we've spent together. and our music...singing!

now i feel like an ass...that's right an ass.


kick in the butt of the day goes too---the ump...man did he suck!

BIG TIME

ok so last night me and my roomie went up to north campus to watch a movie... not just any movie but an outdoor movie. i know, sweet! they had this moster screen that they put up and we watched failure to launch...which i have been wanting to see for a while now. i was pretty happy. not only did i get to go and watch a great movie with one of my best friends. i got a free cup that says sober is sexy. i know you all want it. i do have to say it did get a little cold towards the end of the movie. but it was worth it.

on a different note...i have cru tonight. and yes i can't wait. i feel bad though... over the summer i feel like i've slipped away from god a little bit. or i should say that i wasn't as close as i wish i would have been. i've found myself talking to god a lot more just within this past week. it feels good to be able to talk and know that he's listening. i think it was peter...the pastor at substince church in the cities....he was talking last week at cru...and he really got me thinking. he started talking about talking to god, and if we ever listen to what he says back. well i took his word and kinda set them on the shelf in the back of my mind. on monday it's like they feel off the shelf and hit me. sometimes you just have to listen and stop talking. that's just how it is. don't get me wrong god still wants to hear what you have to say...but sometimes you need to shut up so you can hear what he needs to tell you.

My mind needs to shut up!

over the past couple of days i've had a lot on my mind. and for some reason i just can't get it to shut up.
it's telling me about 3 different things at once when i only wan t to hear one thing at a time. most people can say hey...everyone has that happen to them. and yes i've had it happen to me before...i just don't like it. o well.

so ya i'm in badminton this year...lol...i know funny. let me tell ya...i should be a good time.

kick in the butt of the day goes to- my mind for not shutting up

a different state of mind

i don't know if it's cause i'm older or if it's because of something else...but for some reason i feel like something different with me. i feel better about me... and not just me the way i feel about myself. sweet i know.

last night i had my first night of cru since school started back up...which i love. it's so much fun being able to get together with a bunch of people my own age. not only do we get to together and worship god but we do it at a place where most people go out and drink...and instead we have fun in the name of god. which is super sweet.

it's kinda nice i have all my TEC friends back home...and all my CRU friends up here at school...i know that if i need to talk i'll always have someone that ill listen.


kick in the butt of the day goes to: the people that price art supplies...i hate paying that much money!

back yet again...

i'm back at stout. last night was hard...believe it or not i was kinda homesick last night...now i'm doing a lot better...i got to hang out with a bunch of my friends today. I'mm not a fan of not knowing what's going to happen. and every time i come here i get that uneasy feeling. but it's slowly starting to fade.

all in all i should be fine.

fyi---this year at the state fair i had hotdish on a stick...and yes...it was really good!