Mind Games

ok so i think i play mind games with myself way too much. i'll start thinking one thing and then my mind will be set....until i realize later that there was no way any of that could have happened. so then your all bummed out that you even let your self think that in the first place. but the one thing that i always turn back to is dream big...or set your goals high. i heard a really good speaker yesterday, his name is mike max. one thing that stuck out in my mind is he said, "if you want to make it big, you have to be scared to fail." how true is that. no matter who you are and what you do, your not going to be able to make it there with out a few bumps in the road. so going back to what i was talking about....am i playing mind games with myself or am i just dreaming big and trying to make it somewhere?

Network New Ulm

ok so i know a lot of you probably have no idea what Network New Ulm is....but i'll tell you. in new ulm we have 3 different schools, what network new ulm does is grabs a hand full of sr.s and jr.s from all the schools gets them out of school for a day 6 or 7 times a year. we get to go around to all the different businesses in new ulm and see what they do and how they help the commuinty. if anyone is reading this and has something like this in your town. sign up for it, it's losts of fun and you get to make a lot of different friends too. the reason why i bring this up is on thursday so in 2 days it's our last time getting together. sad. i'm really happy that it's almost here but at the same time it kinda brings a tear to my eye to think that i won't get to miss school anymore and hang out with a really cool bunch of kids that like to have as much fun as i do. i've been thinking about all the different people that are in it and all the different things we've done. and i'm really bummed that i won't be seeing a lot of these people after this or even after this year, with college and all. i've made some really good friends and saying goodby has never been easy for me. friends mean the world to me and if i don't see them again. i will be sad.

love the rain part 2

ok so i still love the rain......but you see the only time when i don't love it all that much is when you have to stop playing softball because of it. ya that's right. we got rained out in the middle of the 4th. owell we'll just beat them today then.......that's if it clears up some.

love the rain

i don't know how many people out there can say they love the rain. but i can......i love listening to it....i love playing softball in it......i love walking in it.......i love driving in it......I LOVE THE RAIN! i really don't know what it is about it.....maybe because it's something you don't get every day.....it's different......it gives you change. change is a good thing most of the time. when i hear, see, smell the rain.......i get happy. and it's raining right now......and i'm smiling from ear to ear. most people sit and complain about the rain, i don't see why......it's not like they can do anything about it. right now it's a good thing. the grass is getting a litttle greener. it's washing away that crapy winter we had. and giving us something new to look forward to. how can you hate the rain? i just don't get it.

life in the past

have you ever noticed that that most of the time that you get mad.....it's because of somthing that has already happened. the way i look at things.......why get mad over it...it's done and over with. you have no reason to be mad now for somthing that has already happened. ya, i know.....speak for your self, but this one i have a really hard time on too. it's really hard to just drop things like it was nothing. granted guys can do it better than girls, but do they really not think about it anymore. i mean come on we are all human. they have to, right?

grrrrrrrrr

so ya........if you ever read this...you'll know that i'm a sports fan and i play softball. so yesterday we had our first game of the season....we lost. did i get to play no, but the coach put me into bat in the last inning........guess who was the last out. me. it's not that i have a problem with it........i can handle these kind of things better than others. owell life goes on.....i'm not dead. things could be worse.

you know one thing that i love.......is the rain. so when i heard rain in the forcast, i was really happy. and then it didn't come....so they said it was suppost to come today........and now it looks like there will be no rain at all. tear.

happy and sad @ once

can you be happy and sad at the same time.........i mean look at me right now. i'm on a softball team....but the only reason the coach kept me on was because i made it last year......ya i'm happy i made the team my sr. year...but for the reasoning.......not so much. now that was like a week ago. so now for one of my classes i have to write a sonnet.......so i'm writing about myself and how i felt........ya i was sad...and now that i'm writing it i feel happy about it. sometime i don't understand myself.